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“I Promise It Will Never Happen Again”

“It will never happen again…”

How many of us as abuse survivors have heard those words?  In my experience, it seems to be a pretty high percentage.

After all of the torment, the name-calling and crazy-making conversations, maybe you’ve finally decided that you just can’t live that way anymore.  So, you pack your bags and walk out, swearing that you will never see that heartless man** again.

A few days or weeks pass, and you find the courage to convey to your estranged spouse that it’s over.  You’re not playing the crazy game for one more day.  But suddenly you receive a message on your phone or a big bouquet of flowers arrives with a fancy card tucked inside. Your abuser passionately conveys a message that goes something like this:

“I realize what a fool I’ve been and how much I love you and need you in my life, and I want nothing more than for you to be happy.  I know I’ve made my share of mistakes, and I want you to know that I will do whatever it takes to re-earn your love and trust.  I feel terrible knowing that I have hurt you deeply, but I promise you it will never happen again. I will never love anyone as much as I love you, and I can’t imagine sharing my life with anyone else.  So just know that I will never give up on us, and I hope you will give me another chance to show you how wonderful our life together can be.”

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Love Keeps No Record of Wrongs?

Natalie Hoffman of Flying Free has an exceptional ministry and offers a wealth of resources designed to help women in abusive relationships.  She recently invited me to do a podcast with her to discuss my new book[i] and the issue of Christian marriage counseling in general.

In the course of our conversation, we were tossing out some of the Scriptures that often tend to keep us bound to our abusers.  Among them was “Love… keeps no record of wrongs’…”  from I Corinthians 13:5 (NIV)

Natalie shared that, in her previous marriage, she would write down accounts of her husband’s abuses, but a day or two later, she would tear them up and throw them away as an exercise of faith by not “keeping a record of wrongs.”  I had the opportunity to briefly explain that our English translations of this verse are painfully inaccurate, and there are times when a literal translation must take precedence to see a more accurate meaning – and the heart of God.

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Is He Throwing Mud at the Wall?

“The words of a wise man’s mouth are gracious; but the lips of a fool will swallow up himself.  The beginning of the words of his mouth is foolishness; and the end of his talk is mischievous madness.”  Ecclesiastes 10:12-13

King Solomon describes those who are swallowed up by their own folly, their own words betraying their “mischievous madness.”  Perhaps you have witnessed what he so eloquently described.

It happens when your priorities finally shift, when holding your unhappy relationship together is replaced by a deepening determination to break free.  But your abuser will realize he’s* losing his grip, and thus begins the next chapter in this ridiculous saga…

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The Dreaded “D” Word

In my conversations with abuse victims, as I listen to them while they peel away layer after layer of marital heartbreak, there may come a point when I find myself engaged in an internal wrestling match, when I am thoroughly convinced that I need to use the dreaded “D” word, but I wonder:  Is it okay for me to say it?

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Maybe It Wasn’t That Bad

Perhaps you have finally chosen to make a dramatic life shift away from your abuser – to separate or divorce him.*  Although some of your wounds have healed and many things have changed for the better, other aspects of your life may be more challenging than you expected, and there may be moments when you find yourself doubting the severity of your tumultuous history.

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